first off.. let me start off by saying... the hangover is a great cure to quit smoking. just throwing that out there. but anyway... i like the mindset i have right now. you know... ive gathered from the vast amount of men that i have met in my life... that they are out to get what they can. so why, as a woman, is it not ok to be the same way. well.. im here to say... it is ok. and it shall be what i do until someone proves me wrong. its also very empowering. i hate men. a lot. clearly my close men friends are exempt from this statement, but for the rest of you... ill tell ya... you let vagina control way too much. i have a tool, i shall use it. im a hustla baby.
i mean. honestly guys. you let vaginas have the power to ruin everything in your life. relationships, friendships, everything. its like tapping into a water source... im gonna get what i can get. id rather be a coldhearted bitch then get treated like a bitch.
thats all i really have to say today. that... and i secretly want to be an amatuer porn star. i have issues.
You would be a great porn star.
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You deserve way more. I know you have thought about being without a man for a while... hows that going? Are you feelin like somethings missing? Is it just sex or are there other emotions tied into it?
honestly sis. its just about the sex. emotions... i mean if i was concerned with emotions.. i would just be with a girl. i cant say that i want any emotions with sex. i have ruined that for myself... but i like that i have. i dont feel like anythings missing. i feel a lot more complete than i have in a while. i just dont think i will ever truely love someone unconditionally... not anyone aside from my son.
ReplyDeleteeven with dickhead... i think i was so into it because he teased me with what i thought i wanted. then he took it away. i dont ever want anyone to have that power over me. i dont ever want to be divorced again, and i dont want my son to ever get attached to another man. i think relationships are over rated. and i believe i can live a perfectly happy life without have a relationship other than my friendships. ive had plenty of time to think about it... and im pretty set in that mindset right now. im lookin out for me.
and bottom line, i just like to fuck. hahaha. i love you sis.
I'm sure you can find plenty of people that would be down. You just need to be careful. I think your feelings will change over time... I think you have alot of love to give... youre just really hurt and trying to protect yourself.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find what youre looking for. You deserve to be happy. I love you so much. Glad youre taking care of you.